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HALLOWEEN!
I'm so excited for halloween!
even though I'm no longe a child I still love this make-up and candy holiday!
I can't wait to take my sister out and collect candy from strangers!
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even though I'm no longe a child I still love this make-up and candy holiday!
I can't wait to take my sister out and collect candy from strangers!
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My apologies
I'm sorry for all the pain I cause.
I'm sorry for all the ill feelings I enduce.
I'm sorry for all the things I mis-say.
I'm sorry for being so weak.
I'm sorry for not letting go.
I'm sorry for being selfish.
I'm sorry for everyhting I have done, and everything I will do.
To those I care about, and to myself, I'm sorry for th way that I am.
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Sometimes, I think... what would happen if I died, right now? how would people react? would they care?
I wonder, if I sent a suicide note, to everyone I care about, delaing the time and place I would take my life,
would people try and stop me?
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THE STUPID MINISWEETS LAMP WAS SOLD OUT TODAY AND I COULDN'T GET IT ON SAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALE!
angry. but at least I got my sweets bed.... which clashes terribly with my house....)
- animal crossing
I'm sorry for all the ill feelings I enduce.
I'm sorry for all the things I mis-say.
I'm sorry for being so weak.
I'm sorry for not letting go.
I'm sorry for being selfish.
I'm sorry for everyhting I have done, and everything I will do.
To those I care about, and to myself, I'm sorry for th way that I am.
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Sometimes, I think... what would happen if I died, right now? how would people react? would they care?
I wonder, if I sent a suicide note, to everyone I care about, delaing the time and place I would take my life,
would people try and stop me?
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THE STUPID MINISWEETS LAMP WAS SOLD OUT TODAY AND I COULDN'T GET IT ON SAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALE!
angry. but at least I got my sweets bed.... which clashes terribly with my house....)
- animal crossing
I saved 3 lives today.
Does having a facination with blood make you creepy?
I think Blood is really pretty... but I won't like, cut myself or another just to see it.....
If I happen to see blood, I stare instead of freak out (depending on the situation)
But that aside, I did somethign that everyone thnks is a huge deal.
I donated blood.
I'm scared of needles too, so it's not like I ENJOYED getting stabbed in the arm, but i was so excited when I heard our school had a blood drive back in grade 9. But was dissapointed when I heard I had to be 17. ^w^ now that I ws old enough, I was so excited to help out. that little packet of blood can save 3 lives. it's amazing. It's really the least you can do for anyone.
My sick uncle needed alot of blood, he died a while back, But I'm so greatfull for those donors that helped keep him alive for so long. may you rest in peace Tio Rudy.
^ ^ on a lighter note, I found it kind of funny how the nurse was worried that my face was pale, when I'm naturally Ivory in colour.... she was so sweet, and it felt awkard to be pampered. I'm so used to people not caring that when someone tires to pamper me(or somehtign of that sort) I get all flustered and don't know what to do~ @w@;
so yeah, Blood's fun. but sparkly vampires SUCK A-HOLE!
I think Blood is really pretty... but I won't like, cut myself or another just to see it.....
If I happen to see blood, I stare instead of freak out (depending on the situation)
But that aside, I did somethign that everyone thnks is a huge deal.
I donated blood.
I'm scared of needles too, so it's not like I ENJOYED getting stabbed in the arm, but i was so excited when I heard our school had a blood drive back in grade 9. But was dissapointed when I heard I had to be 17. ^w^ now that I ws old enough, I was so excited to help out. that little packet of blood can save 3 lives. it's amazing. It's really the least you can do for anyone.
My sick uncle needed alot of blood, he died a while back, But I'm so greatfull for those donors that helped keep him alive for so long. may you rest in peace Tio Rudy.
^ ^ on a lighter note, I found it kind of funny how the nurse was worried that my face was pale, when I'm naturally Ivory in colour.... she was so sweet, and it felt awkard to be pampered. I'm so used to people not caring that when someone tires to pamper me(or somehtign of that sort) I get all flustered and don't know what to do~ @w@;
so yeah, Blood's fun. but sparkly vampires SUCK A-HOLE!
As lame as it began....
It shall end the same way. Lonely and boring.
that is my summer.
GAAAAAAAAAAH! I need to finish work for my company before the summer ends! (or I'll be in BIG trouble!)
So this summer wasn't very eventfull! No one called me to hang out, no one seemed to care that I existed, but hey, that's life for you eh?
^ ^; It's probably because I'm so lame and stupid. I waited half an hour for my friend outside a store when we had aldready passed eachother a half hour before..... *sigh* But we had some fun I guese... ^ ^;
right now I'm preparing to make a cheesecake for my little sister! I wish she enjoyed tea, becausse then I could break out my grandmothers tea set and have a lovely afternoon tea with my sister. too bad she's more on the butch side.....
*sigh* I didn't have like 10 million awsome sleepovers like I had hoped for, I didn't have an awsome overnight stay at a beach with my friends like I hoped for, I didn't get to hang out in new exciting places, no one invided me anywhere, instead I get told the stories of my friends inviteing my OTHER freinds places TOTALLY forgetting about me!
NO! I'M NOT O-F******-KAY! > <
I wish my loved ones were more compassionate towards me.
sorry for bothering anyone who's read this. I don't want to put you in a sour mood.
that is my summer.
GAAAAAAAAAAH! I need to finish work for my company before the summer ends! (or I'll be in BIG trouble!)
So this summer wasn't very eventfull! No one called me to hang out, no one seemed to care that I existed, but hey, that's life for you eh?
^ ^; It's probably because I'm so lame and stupid. I waited half an hour for my friend outside a store when we had aldready passed eachother a half hour before..... *sigh* But we had some fun I guese... ^ ^;
right now I'm preparing to make a cheesecake for my little sister! I wish she enjoyed tea, becausse then I could break out my grandmothers tea set and have a lovely afternoon tea with my sister. too bad she's more on the butch side.....
*sigh* I didn't have like 10 million awsome sleepovers like I had hoped for, I didn't have an awsome overnight stay at a beach with my friends like I hoped for, I didn't get to hang out in new exciting places, no one invided me anywhere, instead I get told the stories of my friends inviteing my OTHER freinds places TOTALLY forgetting about me!
NO! I'M NOT O-F******-KAY! > <
I wish my loved ones were more compassionate towards me.
sorry for bothering anyone who's read this. I don't want to put you in a sour mood.
@ the Library
I like to order books from my local library so that i have an interesting or helpful read every so often. Well, the other day I got an automated call from the library to notify me that i have 6 items ready to be picked up.
(I know, it sounds pretty lame so far, eh?)
sooo, I go inside, pick up my books, and decide to browse in the cooking section, for some reason, sewing and fashion section is right next to the cooking section, so I take a look at the sewing section, just for fun right?
Then a book catches my eye, I can't recall the title, but it ws somehting about "anyone can be sexy" or whatever.
//////// DON'T JUDGE ME! I'M A SHELTERED GIRL! It was embaressing enought to take a look at it.
so, it had this weird like... section thingie with 48 body types, you needed to find yours, then go to the coresponding page to find out what clothes you look good in.
being the dummy that I am, I look through every page without reading the procedure on how to find your body type. after like, 10-15 minutes later, i FINALLY find my body type! it seemed right...
height: 5'4" to 5'7" (i think) ***lbs to ***lbs...
so, I'm a medium build, hourglass figure. I thought "hey, that sounds normal!" so I read the description.
flat out the first sentance was " YOU ARE SO LUCKY TO HAVE THE SEXIEST BODY TYPE!"
I. TURNED. RED! INSTANTLY!
I don't know, I suddenly got like, super embaressed becasue a BOOK said i had a SEXY figure!
first thought in my mind " ah, NO! you stupid book! don't know NOTHING!" then I squished my belly with my finger.
soooo, apperanlty, I'm suposed to wear short skirts, shirts that show off my collar bone and shoulders and belts or certain snugg shirts to show off my waist.
HECK NO! > < I'm sticking to my broken jeans, oversized hoodies and boots thank you very much!
not till I get my hot abs will I prance around in the clothes I REALLY wanna wear!
if you've read up untill this point, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!? and why do i have a double image at the top?
(I know, it sounds pretty lame so far, eh?)
sooo, I go inside, pick up my books, and decide to browse in the cooking section, for some reason, sewing and fashion section is right next to the cooking section, so I take a look at the sewing section, just for fun right?
Then a book catches my eye, I can't recall the title, but it ws somehting about "anyone can be sexy" or whatever.
//////// DON'T JUDGE ME! I'M A SHELTERED GIRL! It was embaressing enought to take a look at it.
so, it had this weird like... section thingie with 48 body types, you needed to find yours, then go to the coresponding page to find out what clothes you look good in.
being the dummy that I am, I look through every page without reading the procedure on how to find your body type. after like, 10-15 minutes later, i FINALLY find my body type! it seemed right...
height: 5'4" to 5'7" (i think) ***lbs to ***lbs...
so, I'm a medium build, hourglass figure. I thought "hey, that sounds normal!" so I read the description.
flat out the first sentance was " YOU ARE SO LUCKY TO HAVE THE SEXIEST BODY TYPE!"
I. TURNED. RED! INSTANTLY!
I don't know, I suddenly got like, super embaressed becasue a BOOK said i had a SEXY figure!
first thought in my mind " ah, NO! you stupid book! don't know NOTHING!" then I squished my belly with my finger.
soooo, apperanlty, I'm suposed to wear short skirts, shirts that show off my collar bone and shoulders and belts or certain snugg shirts to show off my waist.
HECK NO! > < I'm sticking to my broken jeans, oversized hoodies and boots thank you very much!
not till I get my hot abs will I prance around in the clothes I REALLY wanna wear!
if you've read up untill this point, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!? and why do i have a double image at the top?
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