An ideal life, like the gentle cloud

I just get into these weird moods where I feel useless, dumb, pathetic and like, generally annoying to everyone. Now I know this may not be the case- and I don't like this ickiness that plagues me. I get so down after one bad thing that happens, even after 10 good things happen! And then I feel really petty for having those feelings.
I often fantasize about being a cloud.

It's strange, I know.

But clouds are fantastic. Soft, gentle and breezy. They are exist, yet they don't. I'd like to live a life where I can float along easily, quietly blending in with the scenery, sometimes beautiful, sometimes invisible. I think that would be a nice lifestyle to have.

On the otherhand, I seem to get these icky feelings when I'm left alone for too long, or go unnoticed. Then I feel like I'm just desperate for attention and I should get over myself- aaaand I go back to wishing I was a cloud.

I wonder if everyone thinks this way...
maybe it's just me ^ ^;