NOT FIT FOR ME!

This whole week I've been super gummbled with homework and assignments!

I'm trying to work harder since my grades aren't so great.. ^ ^;
I need to try harder and get better grades! I don't get second chances after this year!

it's so scary! I really don't want to grow up, I like things the way they are now.

I'm so afraid of loosing my friends and not living with my family... I'm still just a kid!
I don't understand alot of things.. especially my feelings.
I wish sometumes I could just... become like a stone! cold and unpenitrable! then nothing would ever get me down! >w< Lately I've been getting depressed easier... I hope I didn't inherite that from my mother.

and no matter how many times I pick myself back up, I always end up falling back down into that cold dark hole that makes my tummy all icky when I wake up, that makes me cry when I someting so little happens. maybe it's the stress of becomeing an adult? maybe my mind hasn't caught up to my body yet so I'm being punished.... I don't know. All I know is that I hate myself for being selfish and weak in heart. If I dont' speak my mind I feel like crap, If I DO speak my mind I mess up alot of things.
Prom is comming up soon and, I thought that it was suppoed to be a happy thing, but there's so much drama into it. *sigh* I have a feeling that I won't enjoy it at all. for multiple reasons.

none the less, I will were a happy face and make the best of everything! If you have a negative view, the world is a scary place, I'd rather live with my mind set that the world is essentially good and so are the people!

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If the children don't grow up, our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up. We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to rust.

> MX

that's kind of a scary idea.
It's sad how people really are only good at destroying things.
I KNOW people have the potential to do what's right!

^ ^; hee hee, I don't think I'll ever grow up!

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